a poem for winter

Even in the dead of
a dark dreary winter

Life teems in
the garden of my heart

Bright yellow Winter Aconite
blooms off branches
dusted in snow

Blue sky mixes with
rain clouds, fog, and
a sun low in the sky

Light reflects within
the shadows of
sadness, sorrow,

A tender, timid love
gently, bravely
warms the cold
edges AND

A mysterious enlightening
shows me the way home

Nisi 2017

capitano donna

Last night, a dream
our spaceship crashes
They say everyone, everything was
But the woman ship captain
is there
me and others
and some precious things–broken, everyday items in
a flat open box
do remain…
I wish I could remember
The captain was calm, self-assured,
not afraid…of the truth
something was not quite right
I wish I could remember

a soulmate of the Buddha
What are the Buddhas’
dreams for me?
Do I have enough
confidence and courage
to act sufficiently?
To carry them out?
Just to go forward?
As best I can?
With actions that remember the heart?
What precious thing
am I carrying?
What is good enough?

Soulmates of the Buddha

At this year’s 21-day retreat in Plum Village, France, Sister Annabel (Sư Cô Chân Đức)  gave a talk about the title of the retreat, “Soulmate of the Buddha.” It was based upon Thay’s teachings during the 2012-13 winter retreat that he offered in Vietnamese to the Plum Village monastic community.

Sister Annabel said that after the Buddha became enlightened he thought, “What I realized at the foot of the Bodhi Tree is very deep and wonderful. It cannot possibly be described in words.” The experiences that liberated the Buddha were impossible to put into words. That is why initially he did not want to teach. But the Buddha eventually decided to teach anyway. Why? God Brahma told him that people in the world, they suffer so much, and they need the teachings very much. So he began. He also realized that he needed to offer the teachings in a way that was appropriate to the people he was teaching.

After the Buddha’s death, his teachings were transmitted orally for four hundred years. Things may have been added or lost, based upon the understanding of the person(s) transmitting the teachings. Then every time they were written down it could be the same thing. As Sister Annabel said, when we write down what the Buddha said, the truth of what we are writing depends upon our understanding. Are we transmitting the deep teachings of the Buddha? She said that our understanding depends on our practice. If our practice goes a little bit astray, then our understanding will do the same.

So, in the winter of 2012-13, Thay taught for three months on the subject, “Soulmate of the Buddha.” He shared many “correctives” to what he saw as the lack of understanding that has caused Buddhist practitioners to go astray over time. Many of these “correctives” can be found in the 40 Tenets of Plum Village Buddhism.

Sister Annabel said she’s not sure if “Soulmate of the Buddha” is a good translation–maybe it could be “someone who understands the Buddha.” She said not to get caught in the translation, as it may cause us to go astray! She offered this question as a way to explore the deep meaning of the Buddha’s teachings: “Have we understood the Buddha yet?” We need to give ourselves space and time to understand the meaning of the Buddha’s teachings.

The deep teachings of the Buddha help us touch a dimension that is beyond time and space. And yet it can only be touched right in the midst of this very life we are living in the present moment. I invite us to continue this practice of exploring the teachings, questioning and practicing so that we may be living continuations of the Buddha, soulmates of the Buddha.

you are the Buddha to me

When I was at Plum Village in June I bought this teacup at the Lower Hamlet bookstore. The engraving, “you are the Buddha to me,” has been part of my early morning meditation routine which includes coffee meditation (necessary!), sitting meditation, outdoor walking meditation through the quiet neighborhoods around my home, watering plants, preparing breakfast, and eating mindfully.

One of the themes of our winter retreat this year was that everyone has buddha nature, everyone has the light of God within, everyone can become a Buddha one day. This is one of the most amazing teachings from the Lotus Sutra. If we look at ourselves and others with the eyes of awareness, we can see how this is true. And drinking tea out of this teacup every morning encourages me to remember this as I go through the day. Can I more often offer gratitude to each person and situation I encounter? Can I greet difficulties with a mind of goodwill? With this attitude, I am more peaceful, calm and happy.

Today I bow to you in gratitude _()_   I am remembering, “You are the Buddha to me” 🙂